I’m thankful for 9

This past week has been so wonderful. Beautiful weather almost all week long. I even got out to enjoy it for a bit. I hope you had an equally wonderful week and a happy Monday.

I’m thankful for the wonderful 70’s weather. Feeling the sun on my skin has been divine.

I’m thankful for not driving my car for 7 days straight! Anywhere I needed to go was within walking distance, saving me a lot of money on gas.

I’m thankful for completing my taxes. They’re done, they’re paid and they’re off my conscience.

I’m thankful for knowing my love is safe and sound in the states. So happy knowing he’s back in America.

I’m thankful for getting to talk to G-man 20 times a day like we normally do. I’ve missed his ringtone.

I’m thankful for great blogging friends who patiently tell me how to do the simplest of things on the blog. I am learning new and great things. (new to me any way)

Ecclesiastes 7:5
It is better to listen to the rebuke of a wise man Than for one to listen to the song of fools.

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Aw man, now I'm uncomfortable

I don't respond in the most mature way when I think a guy may like me when the feelings aren't reciprocated. Even if he doesn't but I feel like his 'friendly liking' is more than it should be.

I'll get all awkward, distant and avoidy. (it's a word, promise)

Example:
My college friend K was my then boyfriend's (or the guy I dated for 4 lame months) dorm roommate. K was great with the girls, in the way of a girl's boy bff. One night we laid on the chapel floor under the pews for 5 hours talking...about the roommate and everything else under the sun. That's just how he was.

He invited me to see Phantom of the Opera with him and his parents in San Francisco. I went and had a great time. A little awkward, especially when his nephews thought we should "be a couple" and said so at dinner, but his parents are great and I was happy to go.

Over the years I'd go visit, he and the guys would come and stay with me, and we talked on the phone all the time... then we were on the phone while I was driving one night and I got super uncomfortable because he was wanting me to come visit him. Nothing out of the ordinary but (this is where my not so mature self comes in) I didn't like the idea anymore...

I was going through the mountains at the time and had taken the wrong turn and was lost so I was making excuses for not responding to the 'come visit me' offer when I lost reception and dropped the call.

...I never called him back. That was 6 years ago. <mature? a little...>

I still think about him. We have mutual friends, but am happy we don't talk anymore.

That brings us to today.

There is a guy that I feel is "friendly". Maybe it's just how he is, like K was, but being around him more and more is making me more and more uncomfortable. So I'm beginning to get avoidy. (again, it. is. a. word)

I could be completely wrong about it all! I'm really bad at picking up when a guy likes me, usually until it's too late. But I think I've been seeing "signs" and I don't know what to do.

Every time I explain to G-man a friendship I've established with a guy (usually a co-worker) and the dinners we'd go on and the topics we'd have, blah blah blah... G-man would say, 'he likes you.'

I always make a face at him and say, 'ewww, no he doesn't.'

And he insists it's obvious to him and rattles off 5 or more reasons why he SEES the guy who I say is just my friend  in fact has feelings for me.

Who knows! I do know that I am a pro at making things awkward. It's my specialty...don't you agree??

Have I now made YOU uncomfortable?

((and can we please note my gray hairs in this picture?? They've now tripled since then.))

I was able to explain to G-man this story in great detail and he believes this guy has a little crush on me. eek! Still hoping not...

Hopefully this image can be extracted from your brain enough to have a fabulous and enjoyable weekend!

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What 30 minutes will get you

I chose to walk to a friends house to drop something off and said to myself, 'Self, keep going, it's a gorgeous day.'

Self agreed and kept walking.

5 minutes into it my knee was hurting, odd, but I can press.

5 minutes later, my feet started hurting and with that I just sighed. I still kept going but knew I only had a short amount of time left before I couldn't walk anymore, so I went down this street that is the street every girl dreams of living on since seeing Father of the Bride.

I love this street. It is so so beautiful.

I finally hobbled back to my apt. confined myself to my couch with feet propped for a few hours, then hobbled out to my neighbor's patio with the perfect adirondack chairs...and aaaaaaaahh

forgive the finger blocking.  Phone pictures are hard to do blind.

I may or may not have fallen asleep a few times and my mouth may or may not have been wide open the whole time...it's a thing I do, it's not pretty.

You'll like this. On the way back from G-man and my San Francisco date..you know, our 1st official date; we had a 2 hour drive back and I was super tired, and fell asleep in the car, and well...guess my mouth was WIDE open the whole time!!

ON OUR FIRST DATE!

That's like a 5th date or later thing to do, showing your most embarrassing face.

God love the man, he said I looked cute. <clearly he was too smitten to see the truth>

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Have you ever...picture style

I thought I'd do a picture edition of Have you ever. It should be fun...for me any way. I don't know how much you'll enjoy it...or if you even enjoy my little Wednesday 'have you evers'.

Do ya'll even like reading my insanely weird and random facts? You can be honest...I'm a big girl...who has a tendency to cry when sad...but don't let that stop you. I'm tough...Ford tough. (Ok, I don't even own a Ford...but G-man does!)

OKAY, with THAT!

Have you ever had the chance to sit in one of these bad boys?!

- Yes

I had bangs once...makes me look like I'm 19 (I was 26)

I love that you can see G-man in my glasses. <hi, honey!>

yes...that's my purse on the wing. That's how I 'fly'

Have you ever gone up in one of these?

- Yes

The sun was rising right in my eyes. Very bright and very early.

Beautiful Lake Tahoe

Have you ever flown like a bird?

- Yes

Please make sure my harness is tight!

This is my, I'm extremely nervous but will pretend I'm not, smile.

Weeeeeeee

And if you aren't incredibly bored yet...let me officially get you there with this video.

The beginning is the fun part of it....after that, even I'm bored. I don't expect you to watch it all...unless you like the song of course.

Have you ever willingly ran off a mountain before?!

- Yes, by the way, all those people in the background pulled over to watch while we were setting up. It just made me more nervous.

Quick history of it all. G-man took me on base to show me around...did I mention he used to fly F-18's?? Oh yeah, I just did a few days ago.

G-man took me away to Lake Tahoe once he found out I'd never been and always wanted to go and surprised me with a hot air balloon ride over the lake because he knew I have always wanted to do it...and then later that day, scheduled me to go hang gliding, because why?....he knew I always wanted to do it....

He's extremely good to me and extremely good at spoiling me.

*Random Tip: Don't step on the seat. There's a bomb under it.

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Update before we part ways:

-I seriously need an intervention from my cookies. Someone needs to come in and extract them from my mouth...or better yet, my thighs as they are traveling fast there.

-The spider that played 1/2 dead yesterday and was ultimately set free, I believe was the one that greeted me on my entry wall this morning looking rather spry...well, he be dead now.

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Where'd you go, little bugger?

I've been sitting at my dining table doing a whole slew of nothing...staring at the computer screen, out the window, at some books, at a spider on the wall behind me.

I actually stared at it for a good 15 seconds imagining it was moving but it wasn't. Ever done that? Making your mind think a stationary object is moving..

Okay, totally naive moment: when I was young, like 12, young. I used to spin and spin and spin...before I grew up and realized how nauseous it makes me and would STOP real quick and everything would be spinning...yeah, I used to think it was a way for me to see the earth spinning.

Are you laughing at me??

Any way, back to present.

I turned back to look at the spider and he's gone. Just disappeared. Where'd the little bugger go!?

The other day I watched 1 spider work a web on my bedroom wall. I didn't have the heart to kill him yet. When I saw him again later that morning, he was resting from all the work. I didn't have the heart to kill him then either. When I went back...he was gone, little bugger.

Clearly he didn't abide by our agreement we made that I would eventually kill him.

I did set one free this morning. He was 1/2 dead any way and right at my front door. So I put him on a paper and dropped him in the dirt.

I'm thinking the bug guy came around to spray, hence all the little critters wanting in.

Does anyone else have a designated shoe for killing spiders? I do!

I call him and still do, The spider killing flip-flop.
oooooohh aaaaaaaaahh

And yes, I have even documented some of it's missions.

Why of course I'll share one with you...so thoughtful to ask.

Here he is stretching before duty.

The Enemy: If he looks big that's because he WAS big. Scary big!!

Blurry because he scared the crap out of me by moving! He apparently didn't get the stay still to photo document your impending death memo. Weird...I could of sworn I sent it earlier...

BAM! Don't enter the house of pain unless you intend to..be..in...pain.
I probably should work on that a little more. Maybe something a little more catchy.

You DEAD, sucka!

I've done extensive research and have deduced that no ordinary shoe or even flip flop will suffice. It has to be a flat sole. No grooves, indents or divots. Flat flat flat, like the earth, flat!...no wait, that's round.

Oh my gosh, we interrupt this for a ridiculous moment!! I stepped away (and you didn't even know it) to google 'flat earth' (because I was chuckling at my little flat earth joke above and...ok) GUESS WHAT I FOUND?!

People ACTUALLY believe the earth is flat and the "Round Earth theory" (as they call it) is just an elaborate hoax! Can you believe it?! They have their own society and EVERYTHING. I won't even bother linking their lame site, but people, seriously...you need help!

And we're back.


I do have to say that the flip flop pictured above has officially retired and handed down it's respectful duties to his grandson, whom I'm proud to say is upholding the family name with honors.

Question:
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I'm thankful 8

With the roller coaster of emotions week over and done with, I'm tickled to look back and see ALL that I'm thankful for.

I do want to say how sad it is that 2 F/A-18 pilots died last week during a training exercise by the base. My heart goes out to their families.
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I'm thankful for all of you sweet sweet readers. I'm still amazed you want to read what I have to say, let alone leave me such kind and encouraging comments. They were all making me cry when I was reading them last Thursday...in the good way. I was very weepy last week, haha.

I'm thankful for my bible study women who all made delicious food for our last night together.

I'm thankful for the 2 ladies in particular that were with me that night when I needed a moment away. Your company was appreciated.

I'm thankful for God reminding me that He is here.

I'm thankful for my love who lifts me up even when so far away.

I'm thankful for a fun and successful Friday night with awesome ladies, reassuring me that God's taking care of me.

I'm thankful for absolutely divine peanut butter cookies. I've probably eaten over 30 in 2 1/2 days and have over 20 more to go. They are that good.

I'm thankful for knowing when and when not to brag over my baking skills. (I'm humble, promise.)

Psalm 104:33
I will sing to the LORD as long as I live; I will sing praise to my God while I have my being.

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All about the mushiness!

It's my sweet love's birthday today.

Happy Birthday G-man!!

So of course this will be all things him today. It is his day after all. 

Of the 4 birthdays he's had with me around I've only been able to spend 1 with him. Crazy right?

1st year, he was in Japan for work.

2nd year, he was in Florida for work.

3rd year, he was in Virginia for work..but I was there with him.

4th year, he's in X country for work. 

There's a pattern here...but that's the military for you. 

I love him more than anything and wish I could spend it with him but alas I cannot. I'm missing him like crazy especially when we don't get to talk every day or the normal 7 times a day plus all the texting. To say I'm going through G-man withdrawals is an understatement.

In honor of him I'll post probably the one and only picture of him...and even then...

I know he isn't keen on his picture being posted which is why I've never put one up. He likes his privacy. 

psst...that's him.

Did I ever tell you he used to fly these? Ummm yeah. That's my man. About 6 months before we met he transitioned into another field but I still swell with pride knowing he's so intelligent to fly.

He has his privates pilot's license too and has taken me flying before. I got nauseous, haha.

Maybe one day I'll tell the story of how we met. But for now, I will tell you that he is a gentleman through and through. 

On our first...well, I guess second, but our first official date...guess that's a story too, but any way. We went to San Francisco to see the Blue Angels for our date and had just finished touring Alcatraz. As we're walking down the long pathway, he asked if he could hold my hand. 

How could I say no?! I've wanted to hold his hand ever since. (cheesy? yes, but very true)

These are actually from our date. The tour guide took us 'behind the scenes' where no tour group goes...this is where Nicholas Cage jammed the needle in his heart in the movie "The Rock". Remember that?

He's kind, loving, gentle, funny, honest, thoughtful, caring, and everything else that I've dreamed of having. And just tall enough too...a major criteria to be truthful.

Being 5'11" I required him to be taller, and taller he is...by 1 inch. Juuuust right.

Oh, I wish I were there...or rather him here. It's a better place here then there, for sure!

I sent this to him while on his deployment and it still is true to this day...more than even then. 

Possible? yes!

Come back safely my love. I miss you beyond words and long for your company.

Have a happy birthday!!

Love,
E-dawg

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