Wednesday, November 7, 2012

In all honesty

Where have I been lately?

Maybe you've wondered this the past couple months, maybe you haven't even noticed, but I haven't really "been" here for awhile. To me, I think its obvious with my quality of posts lately, not to mention the lack of. I'm in this abnormal groove these days where it leaves me out of sorts. Kind of withdrawn, kind of uninteresting, and kind of indifferent to things. {lost another follower on twitter?? meh, oh well.. not getting nearly the comments on the blog that I used to?? well, can't really blame them w/what I'm writing about..}

My routine is the exact same every single day. As I'm sure yours is. Its not worth mentioning that I was asked to take on someone else's position in the office so they can be fired, because I turned it down. Its not worth mentioning that I got a "title change" at work, not promotion, because they're reluctant to give me a raise past fifty cents, so I don’t feel I can call it a promotion. Its not worth mentioning that I go home every day and eat sometimes just broccoli alone for dinner, or that I have no motivation to make anything other than that and the occasional tuna sandwich.

I'm in this rut. This tiring emotionally numb rut and don't feel like you should be dragged into it. Its boring. Its mundane. Its made me not want to blog.

And that's the truth.

Come Saturday, I hope things will change around. I know they will, but its the waiting for it while simultaneously being content in the busy chaotic days leading up to it, that's what's important and not always easy to accomplish.

If you’re up for it, bear with me. I’m going to come out of this eventually, and when I do, I’ll have my fun self back full of stories. I just know it!

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12 comments:

twenty-somethingblog.com said...

Ugh, I can totally relate! I have been in the same rut and the blog has suffered a little as a result. Ever since John and I brought the puppy home I've just been insanely busy. We're just now adjusting to our new routine and so is the pup so things are finally getting back to normal. Hang in there!

Stephanie

Lisa said...

Hey you, I guess we all go through this or something similar at some point and it makes the sharing in public difficult. Thankfully that's why there is a light at the end of the tunnel....and I realize that that could be the headlights of the next "issue" but there is also hope and faith in that light.

Thinking of you and sending you a big hug!!!!!

The Heart Of A Woman said...

I have been in a rut for months!!!! I have missed you though!!!

Lauren said...

Chin up!! You have still kept me laughing :)

We all go through these seasons. Write what is on your mind or heart. Don't worry about if we will find it interesting. I have found the more honest I am the more people like what I write.

Wendy said...

I so can relate! I'm feeling quite the same way myself right now. But you are right, we'll come out of this and all will be well. I'll be praying for you, friend! :)

sandi said...

to say i cannot relate would be a lie! i think we all go through a little funk fog every once in a while... mine lasted too long. it was a season of discontent about far too many things ~ especially when i have SO many things to be thankful for. thinking about you and hoping this season of life will be shortly lived.

My-cliffnotes said...

Umm when are you going on vacation?


Ruts happen we still love you mucho

Megan said...

I've definitely been there! I will still be here when you get back!

Chantel Klassen said...

I totally get what you are going through. I'm there right now too. Hope you break out of it soon!

Claire said...

Definitely will hang in there because I like hearing from you--rut or not :)

meghan said...

I hope your run ends soon. I'm sorry that you're feeling like this. It's a yucky feeling. Is there something you could do to shake it up? Is there a little hobby you could pick up that would be fun and exciting? Crafting? Knitting? I'm not sure. Just a thought?

Katie said...

here's to hoping you're sweet time with G helps you out of that rut!

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