Friday, October 28, 2011

A life altering decision

I made a decision that would effect my entire household. A decision that I didn’t enter into lightly.

I conferred with G-man and he said it was ultimately my decision to make, but that he would support me in whatever it was I decided. I felt this change would be the best choice, I really did!

Unfortunately after 2 months, I see it wasn’t. I regret the decision and all the trouble that has been caused since moving forward with my choice. But I realize its something I’m going to have to live with and accept, until the opportunity comes until it can be rectified. Unfortunately I believe it won’t be for awhile, and that is a hard pill to swallow.

I bought a new pillow.

It hurts me so much to write that. Especially after writing such a heartfelt letter to my beloved pillow. The pillow that when G-man brought back with him after leaving it in Hawaii, I devoted a moment to it.

I once again made the decision to leave it in Hawaii so I could have it there when I visited, knowing full well I would buy a new one for my own home. It weighed 5lbs. I only get 50lbs per suitcase! At the time, I felt it was the right thing to do.

But this new one? His sister, as I refer to her as…is too thin. Too flat. She said she would perform the exact same way, yet she hasn’t. Hour after hour I lie awake, tossing and turning, struggling to find that perfect cup for my neck, and she never supplies it. I’ve resulted in adding a second pillow underneath her, just so I can sleep with minimal neck and shoulder pain, but even then...

I never had to do this with my beloved pillow. He always performed beautifully time and time again on his own.

I’m ashamed of this choice I made. More so knowing G-man is benefiting from it when I’m supposed to be. I don’t think I will ever be the same.

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If you or a loved one is also suffering from pillow replacement, please know, I’m here with you. Together, I’m confident we’ll be able to overcome this.

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11 comments:

The Blogivers said...

Surely there is a support group for this kind of thing!

LeAnna said...

So, your pillow perfomed beautifully, eh? Neither too hard nor too soft, hmm?

*crickets*

Ohhhhhhh, man. I lurv you.

And in all seriousness, I'm sorry about the pillow. Not cool, not cool....

Stephanie said...

I don't have a pillow problem, but once I almost returned an area rug because it didn't look "right" in the living room...then I realized that there was a throw blanket in the corner that was throwing everything off. My husband thought I was C-R-A-Z-Y!

Tatiana said...

I'm just gonna follow along with LeAnna and say that you'll need to find yourself another one which is the perfect performer. You know, just gentle enough for you.
Good luck with that one. Not an easy task...

Sam {fitnessfoodandfaith.blogspot.com} said...

oh the pillow saga!! i think we need accompanying cartoon drawings with these posts...

Natalie said...

Sorry about your pillow. I have a pillow I'm also very possessive of and I can't sleep normally without it.

Jennifer said...

I love my pillow....I hope I never part with it! :) I feel your pain! Hehe!

Megan said...

Hahaha, you are a freak. But I so love you for making me laugh. : )

My pillow is like $10 from Wal-Mart. Ahhh. Don't hate me.

Oneika said...

Too hilarious!

Tabitha Lynn said...

Oh I feel your pain. M and I steal each others pillows all the time, he thinks they are his but they're totally mine.

Mrs. Pancakes said...

Lol...I'm liking your we profile picture!

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