A life altering decision

I made a decision that would effect my entire household. A decision that I didn’t enter into lightly.

I conferred with G-man and he said it was ultimately my decision to make, but that he would support me in whatever it was I decided. I felt this change would be the best choice, I really did!

Unfortunately after 2 months, I see it wasn’t. I regret the decision and all the trouble that has been caused since moving forward with my choice. But I realize its something I’m going to have to live with and accept, until the opportunity comes until it can be rectified. Unfortunately I believe it won’t be for awhile, and that is a hard pill to swallow.

I bought a new pillow.

It hurts me so much to write that. Especially after writing such a heartfelt letter to my beloved pillow. The pillow that when G-man brought back with him after leaving it in Hawaii, I devoted a moment to it.

I once again made the decision to leave it in Hawaii so I could have it there when I visited, knowing full well I would buy a new one for my own home. It weighed 5lbs. I only get 50lbs per suitcase! At the time, I felt it was the right thing to do.

But this new one? His sister, as I refer to her as…is too thin. Too flat. She said she would perform the exact same way, yet she hasn’t. Hour after hour I lie awake, tossing and turning, struggling to find that perfect cup for my neck, and she never supplies it. I’ve resulted in adding a second pillow underneath her, just so I can sleep with minimal neck and shoulder pain, but even then...

I never had to do this with my beloved pillow. He always performed beautifully time and time again on his own.

I’m ashamed of this choice I made. More so knowing G-man is benefiting from it when I’m supposed to be. I don’t think I will ever be the same.



If you or a loved one is also suffering from pillow replacement, please know, I’m here with you. Together, I’m confident we’ll be able to overcome this.

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