Tuesday, May 17, 2011

It’s cool to procrastinate

I may have said the title like Billy Madison, only as we all know, he says it’s cool to ___ something else…anyone? anyone? Someone has to know what he really said. Anyone??

OK, I’ll trust someone will say it and move on to my point. I’m procrastinating. You may ask, Emily, how can that be? You have all day every day to yourself to complete all and every task and yet you procrastinate?

Seriously, guys?! Can you ease back a bit?? I’m only human….and *cough* lazy *cough cough*

My Dr.’s appointment is in approximately 7 days and I have yet to sit down and write out all the details of my feet. I’ve had 3 weeks to do this.

This is the BIG appointment in Los Angeles that could possibly be the cure all for my feet. Remember, Jennifer Grey gave me her Doctor’s name?
Well, I’m having a hard time being excited about this appt. I’m bordering on the pessimist side while G-man is beyond the optimist.

I feel really bad every time I think about it. He is 100% sure this Dr. will fix my feet. He says so every time. He’s confident the Dr. will know just how to make everything all better. Even if it means more surgery. It’s the sweetest thing ever, hearing his hope. I’ve been leaning on his hope and praying for an inkling of hope myself.

I know this Dr. will poke and prod me. Ask ALL the same questions. Want to take all the same tests and ugh! I’m not looking forward to it. Poopy attitude I know.

Any way, I have no choice but to sit down and type out all my symptoms, dates of procedures and treatments, and I loathe the thought of it. Even more so when I can’t figure out how to describe my pain.

The thing I’ll have the toughest time doing is keeping my previous Dr. out of this new appt. I need to go in neutral and I’m having a hard time coming up with my 'game plan.’ Do I think he damaged my feet in surgery, yes. Do I think he did it on purpose, no. But whatever he did…or didn’t do is the reason why I’m in this position. I don’t resent him for this, so we’re clear. I’m griping though, I know. I’m sorry.

So please, if you think about it, I could really use some prayer. I know God has His hand in this and I’m trusting in Him with the outcome. With that said, I could use hope and a positive attitude over it all. And to go into it open minded…and I guess not afraid of what he’ll say. Even if he says more surgery to correct everything.

Okay, that’s a lot to pray for but it would mean a lot.

*thanks everyone for your comments on my pictures yesterday. You guys are the best! Pin It Now!


The Blogivers said...

Saying a prayer for you!

And Billy Madison says you ain't cool unless you pee your pants! Duh. Love that movie.

Amy @ dwell in the season said...

Yes, I will definitely pray for you! I'm sure it's SO hard to think anything different about this appt. But the Lord knows what you need! Have a great day :)

Sam {fitnessfoodandfaith.blogspot.com} said...

praying, chica!! i hope this dr appt goes well :)

meme-and-he said...

pee your pants!! of course.
Hope this appointment goes well! Dr.s can be so overwhelming, but i hope this one really does help your feet.

Annie M Culley said...

I've been in your shoes for YEARS with a different disease. All it takes it to find the right doctor and it can make all the difference in the world! Good luck, stay positive and hang in there! My prayers are with you!

Tatiana said...

Oh Em, that totally sucks that the other doc screwed up with your feet! NOT COOL! I'm glad that you were able to find another doc and I really hope that he'll fix you up. And you have every right to be in a griping mood. You know I would :-)
Def. praying for ya sista' girl. You know you're my home slice and Jesus and I are like this (index and middle finger crossed), so between the two of us we got you covered ;-)

GreenGirl said...

Will be praying for you! I heard something recently...prayer=talking, meditating=listening.
Your boyfriend is right...you are seeing one of the top specialists in the field. You are damn lucky. I'm with him in the optimism camp.


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